27. December 2016 by swissfitchick
Dictionary says, a slut is a sexually successful person. This speaks to me.
Tap my shoulder for giving great thoughts about life while I schlep from a training to a work shift back to a training back to a work shift, simultaneously freezing my non-existent balls off and scrolling through pictures on Social MADia, where people are celebrating Jesus birth or something. Let’s say, I feel vaguely functional these days and I didn’t even have wine. That’s an oxymoron, if you ask me. ASK ME.
On a more profound note, I found that in retrospect of this year, much has
changed. I couldn’t help but wonder where change and constancy link, and if they, in fact, inextricably link. Or if they are a polarity. As for my experience in my semi-swanky, frugal life that focuses on primal basics, I have come to find that reliability and permanence is what we wish for when we love and are loved by someone; but then change is what we wish for, if love isn’t a given in our current life situation.
While I look around, watching people living life in all its allure, I tighten my brow and ponder a litany of questions. Does settling down equal happiness? Is being satisfied the ultimate goal? Or is satisfaction the death of desire? If we are left with nothing to be desired, what comes next? Is happiness possible while craving change? Is it possible to be happy if change is the only constant in life? Is life a paradox, because we always want to move forward, while wishing to stay safe and sane in our cute little comfort zone? Is change the proverbial tree in the forest? It only exists if we experience some sort of plateau and settlement around it? Like, change can only happen if you stagnated before?
As for me, my only constant in life is change and 2-3 of my very long and loyal
friendships which developed, grew and changed over the years along with me. I
have lived in several domiciles throughout the years spread all over the world. I had a
small couple of intermittent relationships to spice up the single phases which were peppered with lovers or friends with benefits. I have not had a straight and stable career; quite the contrary, I’ve had a plethora of different jobs none of them I regret having done. However, I was very consistent with my curious, adventurous,
cheerful and bubbly nature, I stuck to life decisions I took and passions I discovered. And despite the dark times I fought through – looking at the big picture, I have always been a happy person. Optimistic, eager to live and laugh and today, dare I even say – laid back and down to earth.
However, coming back to the aforementioned statement about permanence and change; I am a protagonist of change, yet I must admit that I was keen on being still and more settled while having someone by my side. It seems legit to let someone tear me down to a quieter base of life because I want to do so for the sake of love.
Still, I am a high advocate of change. Embrace change. Change doesn’t always
mean you leave the good things behind; neither does it mean that you are
looking for something better. It doesn’t mean you change who you are. Change
means evolvement, curiosity, courage and education. It means following the
desire and not being afraid of leaving the comfort zone. It means living life to its
fullest by staying true to your values and while discovering the allures of the
Not all those who wander are lost. And sometimes stagnation means freedom.
Just don’t turn wandering into an escape or stagnating into boredom. Stay true, curious,
alive and aware.