5. February 2016 by swissfitchick
‘Everyone says, love hurts, but that is not true. Rejection hurts. Loneliness hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality, love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt.’
It is not a secret that I have a crush on Liam Neeson, but I also love this quote.
I am not afraid of many things in life – not anymore. I am intimidated by waves (that’s why I spend my vacation in California and Australia, cause clearly there are no waves) – but I can not really think of something that drives me into panic.
Especially not Love.
I have trust issues, but I am not afraid of loving someone. I do have my fair experience with Love and the emotions connected to it, and YES, they can hurt so damn bad. If you open up emotionally to someone, you make yourself vulnerable and easy to be hurt. I got broken emotionally and physically, and still believe in Love and the power of healing that comes with it.
Maybe it was also my self-abhorrence why I fell for abusive relationships in the past and sometimes still am attracted by people who literally are a pain – but that is my own story I still need to work on. It’s always two in a relationship, so here I go.
Managing to trust someone 100% and share life, doubts, joys, struggles and emotions with this person, is difficult but absolutely wonderful. I experienced these feelings, the moments of safety, of being loved and protected, of giving love and supporting each other, knowing each other. Having someone to rely on and laughing together.
I don’t like to make myself dependent on a person, I like to be sure that I can handle everything by myself. And I know today that I am capable to do so.
Yet, Love inspired me to leave my dark past behind. Love gave me the strength to trust and it was one of the reasons I made this last try to recover. I wanted to do it for Love and for myself. It made me become aware of what I miss out in life if I stay trapped in this addiction and it made me want to go out there and LIVE – healthy and happy without the demons and anxieties, without obsessions and drugs. I loved someone and I was loved in return, plus, and most importantly, I learned to love myself. Love healed my wounds and my soul. It may cause new ones, but I would take this any day in return of the miracle of Love.
There is no timetable for Love. Love comes and love pass, we can not predict its moods. If it is there, grab it, live it, savor it. It’s precious and rare.