If you want to sing out, sing out, if you want to be free, be free

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11. January 2016 by swissfitchick

Summer came back to Bondi and spoils us. I thought about walking around at Bondi Beach, carrying one of these Sandwich signs on me which says:’Yo, wanna marry me?’ so I can stay here. But then again, I think this……

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I can’t be bothered.

Icebergs Pool, Bondi, Sydney

Icebergs Pool, Bondi, Sydney, January 2016

I am not a slut.

A friend once suggested that I should pretend that someone hacked my blog and yells out all the love life secrets of mine on here, so I get huge attention and exploding statistics. I was not impressed. So if you ever read inappropriate stories about me here which can not possibly be true (what do you mean, it is already inappropriate stuff on here! Tsss )……this was NOT me.

Anyways, that is not the subject for today’s post. I have been told I was stubborn. Not only lately, always. My excuse is that I am Taurus. Also, my Dad drilled me to do my way, to be quick in the trigger and arguing instead of giving in for the sake of peace. Harm set, harm get – to his annoyance, I learnt quick and totally used the skills he taught me when we were arguing. By lack of arguments, he simply suggested to me to become a fucking lawyer. Or that we just stop arguing now, cause he is the boss and because he says so. Meh!

Street Art, Bondi Beach, Sydney, January 2015

Street Art, Bondi Beach, Sydney, January 2016

The most recent situation was with a friend here in Bondi who I met again and stated in a short discussion, that I was just as stubborn as when we met last. He said it with a blink. I agreed, but also stated that it saved my life so many times. It helped me to be at the place I am today.

Sunday class @ CrossFit Bondi, Bondi Junction, Sydney, Janaury 2015

Sunday class @ CrossFit Bondi, Bondi Junction, Sydney, January 2016

I dare to say about myself that I am a relaxed and uncomplicated person – I am not stubborn in my social life, on the contrary, I am rather flexible and adaptable. Yet, I am pretty straightforward and I have a strong mind and opinion about values and worths in life and my world. Plus, I am determined if I want something. If I have a goal in sight, I stay focused and work for it until I get it – I don’t mind the time or effort I have to put in. Stubborn. Or you can call it ambitious, dedicated, obsessed – whatever.

Scrambled eggs, sauteed spinach, tomato and green smoothie

Scrambled eggs, sautéed spinach, tomato and green smoothie

Being stubborn or dedicated for that matter brought me to recovery from my addictions. It made me jump back on to my feet after any down. The same makes me stay sane and not relapsing. I am not saying I have no issues – we all do, don’t we? But after 20 years of being a junkie, you might have some more and I definitely need to stay aware of my thoughts and my mindset to not get anxious. I have to make sure that my connection to my inner self is constantly activated and I got to keep up with the rituals that make me stand on a solid ground.

Bondi Beach, Sydney, January 2015

Bondi Beach, Sydney, January 2016

There were some points in life when I felt like I am not going to make it. Yet, with my stubborn mind, I refused to give up. I refused to stop hoping. I refused to stop believing. I refused to fall into this black hole which was kind of tempting. I stubbornly kept going.

It starts to be dangerous when you stop having faith, trust and hope in your life.

Hillcrest, San Diego, CA, December 2015

Hillcrest, San Diego, CA, December 2015

Being stubborn helped me to reach the goals I set for myself. If these are all the CrossFit skills I am still working hard for – talk about Handstand Hold, Handstand Walk (still working on that one, damn), all the stuff at the rig, Oly Lifts – I am not 20 years old anymore and I need to put a LOT of work, time and patience in to see some serious progress. But I want it. I want to be able to master these skills and as long as I can, I will work for it. I love training, it makes me happy and confident– this is the reason I stick to it consistently. After 2 years of CrossFit I can say, that the work starts to pay off slowly. I also earned my Bachelors of Arts at the age of 32, as one of the oldest students. I didn’t mind – I simply wanted it.

Being stubborn helped me to get out of the addiction almost by myself. It helped me to stay stable and not giving in to the nasty temptation of the drug.

Caged street art, Bondi Beach, Sydney

Caged street art, Bondi Beach, Sydney, January 2016

Surfers, Bondi Beach, Sydney, January 2015

Surfers, Bondi Beach, Sydney, January 2016

Stubbornness has a flip side too…. it’s hard following rules which do not make sense to me. I am over the rebel thing, where I thought I need to break ALL the rules just for the sake of it and to show off as the cool kid – we must not talk about what rules I broke when I was young, it ain’t no good. And I might end up in jail 20 years in delay. 

Today, I simply struggle to subordinate when I see no reason. Which sometimes isn’t the healthiest thing to do, or rather it just gets straining without the result I wish for. Some rules stay rules and it’s more reasonable to just accept and follow them than arguing about them. #growup #butidontwanttogrowup

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Except that reasonableness lacks in my life and I don’t like rules in general. Gotta work on that one, I guess. #assaidgrowup

 

Who moves to Australia with me?

Are you stubborn?

Which rituals do you use in your daily routine to feel good?

xxx,

Luce

 

 

13 thoughts on “If you want to sing out, sing out, if you want to be free, be free

  1. I’ll move to Australia with you because it looks amazing. Of course, I come with a kid now, two cats and a Hubby. Think you can handle us all?

    I am stubborn too and for as many ways as it’s hurt me, it’s helped me tremendously. Without it, I wouldn’t be who I am or where I am today. I think it makes more sense to be aware of situations where we may need to relax our stubbornness and then embrace it when it helps. Basically, exactly what you did here.

    P.S. I’ll never grow up.🙂

  2. I’ll come to OZ! If I can bring my wife and ditch a few other living things.😉 HAHA!

    I hear you on the stubborn. I’m NEVER wrong, only little feisty, and have difficulty with authority. All signs I need to open up that wine and whiskey bar very soon. The only solution is to work for myself.

    xoxo

    • Exactly! I will make sure these other living things are not allowed in the place we rent🙂

      I join you on the whiskey bar. I really have no clue how I am supposed to work with a boss in the future.

  3. Well you know my thoughts on Australia😉
    I would always say that I wasn’t stubborn…. But everyone around me tells me I am! Especially when it comes to my goals. I am open to others opinions and will change my mind occasionally (!) but nine times out of ten I always stick to my guns!

  4. I’m definitely stubborn, and while I’m sure it’s hurt me on a good number of occasions, it’s also helped me through a tonne of others. I honestly don’t think I could have recovered from my eating disorder if it wasn’t for me being so stubborn, so while it can be a pain in the ass sometimes, I can’t hate on it too much. And I’ll gladly come to Australia with you! God knows I could use a little sun and warmth in my life right now.

  5. Love this Lucie! Honestly I think it’s just a matter of perspective & how you are channeling certain qualities. Although ‘stubborn’ tends to have a negative connotation, it can actually be very positive as you have shown to be. That kind of determination doesn’t come easy to a lot of people so you should be proud of yourself…and the beauty is that it really does transcend into avery area of your life!

    PS let’s start flat hunting- I’m coming down under with you :D!

  6. cottercrunch says:

    We might move to New Zealand, so yes, i’ll come to AUstralia next! and I’m so stubborn in some areas… and then others I don’t give a flip. BUt i do LOVE YOU!!

  7. we are stubborn eggs together, okay?

    I’m stoked to see you posting regularly again- I miss my Swiss Chalet full of wisdom (and sass)!

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