12. January 2015 by swissfitchick
First of all, thank you to our favorite Diva for hosting today’s Marvelous Monday!
Let me first show you a few pics of the weekend in St.Moritz before I explain the title. Our officeteam went to the Swiss Alps from Friday afternoon until Sunday late afternoon. The intention was to go for a bobrun – which didn’t happen. It rained like crazy from Friday to Saturday and it was too warm, so the run couldn’t be used. I was devastated. I was looking forward to this adventure since last weekend!
Oh well. We had a ton of fun nonetheless. Though I was running on a ridiculous sleep deprivation (it’s old by now, I know) and whenever I could sneak in a nap, I did. Actually, when we arrived at the hotel and the whole crew ran to the Spa, I passed out on my hotel bed for 3 hours. Okay, okay….I went for a 7am CrossFit class in the morning, so this might have been a reason too for being half-destroyed and sleepy.
Other than that, we went on a horse buggy ride. I couldn’t stop grinning, since I already wanted to do this last weekend but the time was out.
Since 2015 started, I decided to enjoy once a day a big caffe latte. I can drink coffee with a ton of milk (low fat), otherwise I can’t handle it. I love the milkfoam more than the actual coffee, that’s for sure. So far I like this little break and treat and I feel like I want to keep it up. One a day, more coffee will turn Lucie into a caffeinated battery bunny. Don’t force my hyperactivity, it’s not a good idea, believe me.
AND I went for a 1h10 run yesterday after arriving back home! It was SO good to be out in the forest and to work on my endurance. After being sick and focusing on Powerlifting, I definitely neglected this area and it felt good to be able to run 11k’s without too much gasping around. Now I just need to get stronger at the Workouts too.
Now on to the title.
I don’t even know yet what I want to say about it, but fact is, that 2015 will bring a lot of changes. I can honestly say that I have respect of the future. I am not scared or terrified, but there is so much unknown that it releases quite the doubts and questions inside myself. Of course it doesn’t stop me from going forward full force and nothing can kill my motivation and lust for life or being my loud and extroverted self, but it also makes me ponder and giving thoughts to certain things more intensely than usual.
Like blogging. My current job, my job at CrossFit, Training (CrossFit Games Open, Swiss Championship Powerlifting are ahead), friends&family, a home and blogging – I can barely balance everything out. And I don’t even have a husband or kids. As mentioned, what suffers is my sleep. Since months, I don’t sleep more that 5-6 hours a night and it clearly isn’t enough. I do have plans in my mind to change this, but it’s all very unclear yet.
Anyway, I am torn. I love blogging. Writing and photographing, editing, and being creative are my passions. I can connect with so many brilliant and wonderful people and this blog helped me so much to recover from my ED and to be where I am today. On the other hand, I blog on a more professional level for CrossFit and for SwissCityBootCamp. So blogging IS a part of my life anyway.
My blog turns my inner side out – I always decided to be honest, open and myself here on fitswisschick.com. I shared my break up with you, my relapses, well, my whole freakin’ LIFE (Stories 1, 2, 3, 4, 5) and all the ups and downs in the last 2,5 years. Sometimes, this can get exhausting. Especially in times like this, when times vary, and I am struggling with doubts, I don’t always feel like sharing it with the world and present my vulnerability to everyone. I sometimes feel like I should back out a little and focus more on myself, my world and my reflections rather than on what people like to read from me. Don’t get me wrong – I love every single person who comes here to read my lines and I am happy about every comment and feedback I get.
So don’t worry, I won’t disappear just like this and not tomorrow anyway. But I had to write these thoughts out to get a clearer picture on where I stand with my motivation to keep on blogging or not. I have many adventurous trips ahead, competitions and shenanigans which I definitely want to recap here – it will be fun and interesting for you to read and it will be my personal diary as always. I also still have plenty of recipes in my blonde head and of course tons of stupid jokes, pictures and subjects to discuss. So you won’t get shot of me just now, sorry. But I will change something in a timeframe of the next 6 months, that’s for sure. I hope until then you’ll stay here with me and share your thoughts!!
Fellow Bloggers, can you relate?
Readers – thoughts?
Any suggestions, feedbacks, wishes for the future of Fitswisschick.com?
Your feedback is much appreciated, as always!