12. January 2015 by swissfitchick

First of all, thank you to our favorite Diva for hosting today’s Marvelous Monday!

Let me first show you a few pics of the weekend in St.Moritz before I explain the title. Our officeteam went to the Swiss Alps from Friday afternoon until Sunday late afternoon. The intention was to go for a bobrun – which didn’t happen. It rained like crazy from Friday to Saturday and it was too warm, so the run couldn’t be used. I was devastated. I was looking forward to this adventure since last weekend!

Oh well. We had a ton of fun nonetheless. Though I was running on a ridiculous sleep deprivation (it’s old by now, I know) and whenever I could sneak in a nap, I did. Actually, when we arrived at the hotel and the whole crew ran to the Spa, I passed out on my hotel bed for 3 hours. Okay, okay….I went for a 7am CrossFit class in the morning, so thisย might have been a reason too for being half-destroyed and sleepy.


Other than that, we went on a horse buggy ride. I couldn’t stop grinning, since I already wanted to do this last weekend but the time was out.

ENgadin LUcie Engadin

Can't stop babbling for more than 2 seconds....

Can’t stop babbling for more than 2 seconds….


My favorite table-mate

My favorite table-mate


Swiss Hotel Breakfasts. BEST EVER. No fat quark with oatbran, berries and almonds. On the side omelette, swiss cheese, smoked ham, tomatoes and a caffe latte which I sprinkled with white swiss chocolate powder.

Swiss Hotel Breakfasts. BEST EVER. No fat quark with oatbran, berries and almonds. On the side omelette, swiss cheese, smoked ham, tomatoes and a caffe latte which I sprinkled with white swiss chocolate powder.

Selfies with my phone.

Selfies with my phone. Hmm. ๐Ÿ™‚


Since 2015 started, I decided to enjoy once a day a big caffe latte. I can drink coffee with a ton of milk (low fat), otherwise I can’t handle it. I love the milkfoam more than the actual coffee, that’s for sure. So far I like this little break and treat and I feel like I want to keep it up. One a day, more coffee will turn Lucie into a caffeinated battery bunny. Don’t force my hyperactivity, it’s not a good idea, believe me.

AND I went for a 1h10 run yesterday after arriving back home! It was SO good to be out in the forest and to work on my endurance. After being sick and focusing on Powerlifting, I definitely neglected this area and it felt good to be able to run 11k’s without too much gasping around. Now I just need to get stronger at the Workouts too.


Now on to the title.

I don’t even know yet what I want to say about it, but fact is, that 2015 will bring a lot of changes. I can honestly say that I have respect of the future. I am not scared or terrified, but there is so much unknown that it releases quite the doubts and questions inside myself. Of course it doesn’t stop me from going forward full force and nothing can kill my motivation and lust for lifeย or being my loud and extroverted self, but it also makes me ponder and giving thoughts to certain things more intensely than usual.

Like blogging. My current job, my job at CrossFit, Training (CrossFit Games Open, Swiss Championship Powerlifting are ahead), friends&family, a home and blogging – I can barely balance everything out. And I don’t even have a husband or kids. As mentioned, what suffers is my sleep. Since months, I don’t sleep more that 5-6 hours a night and it clearly isn’t enough. I do have plans in my mind to change this, but it’s all very unclear yet.

Anyway, I am torn. I love blogging. Writing and photographing, editing, and being creative are my passions. I can connect with so many brilliant and wonderful people and this blog helped me so much to recover from my ED and to be where I am today. On the other hand, I blog on a more professional level for CrossFit and for SwissCityBootCamp. So blogging IS a part of my life anyway.

My blog turns my inner side out – I always decided to be honest, open and myself here on I shared my break up with you, my relapses, well, my whole freakin’ LIFE (Stories 1, 2, 3, 4, 5) ย and all the ups and downs in the last 2,5 years. Sometimes, this can get exhausting. Especially in times like this, when times vary, and I am struggling with doubts, I don’t always feel like sharing it with the world and present my vulnerability to everyone. I sometimes feel like I should back out a little and focus more on myself, my world and my reflections rather than on what people like to read from me. Don’t get me wrong – I love every single person who comes here to read my lines and I am happy about every comment and feedback I get.


So don’t worry, I won’t disappear just like this and not tomorrow anyway. But I had to write these thoughts out to get a clearer picture on where I stand with my motivation to keep on blogging or not. I have many adventurous trips ahead, competitions and shenanigans which I definitely want to recap here – it will be fun and interesting for you to read and it will be my personal diary as always. I also still have plenty of recipes in my blonde head and of course tons of stupid jokes, pictures and subjects to discuss. So you won’t get shot of me just now, sorry. But I will change something in a timeframe of the next 6 months, that’s for sure. I hope until then you’ll stay here with me and share your thoughts!!


Fellow Bloggers, can you relate?ย 

Readers – thoughts?ย 

Any suggestions, feedbacks, wishes for the future of

Your feedback is much appreciated, as always!




32 thoughts on “Changes?

  1. Susan says:

    I pray that you don’t stop blogging! Your posts hit home with me in more ways than I can count and to not read how you’re doing will be very sad for me and others, too. ๐Ÿ˜ž

    Stay well and happy. You are sweet and such an honest person and I have enjoyed your blog!

  2. I 100% get it. I love blogging but then you realize there’s a lot of real life and paying work you have to do. Prioritize and do what’s best for YOU. But don’t disappear from me. xo

  3. I can completely relate to you! I love to blog and would definitely update more regularly if the option was up to me but at the end of the day, we all have to prioritise. At this stage of my life, real life & work that pays the bills come first! Even if it means cutting back your blog frequency- do it…just don’t disappear on us completely woman!! And yay for your new coffee habit- welcome to the dark side, even if it’s not so dark given all the milk in a latte ;)!

  4. Emily Hawkes says:

    I totally get you. I’ve been struggling with the motivation to write – some stuff feels too personal, and other stuff seems too superficial. I’m sure you’ll get there and find a balance that works for you. Whatever happens, don’t beat yourself up – as long as you are putting yourself first, that’s all that matters to your readers. xxxx

  5. Oh yes, you -know- I can relate. Completely. I love blogging. The lack of sleep? Feeling stressed when life gets too busy to fit in a post? Not so much. I’m not sure what my future – or simply just this year for now – will bring. What I do know is that the blog will be part of my life but yes, I might need to change from my current schedule.
    Whatever you decide is best for you in the end: we as your readers will appreciate you for taking the action needed to keep your balance and enjoy every post coming our way. And I personally wouldnโ€™t mind another meet-up this year. (:

    • Thank you my Dearest!! I am so glad you guys can relate. I felt like I am the only blogger out here who struggles and all my fellow bloggers have found the perfect balance.

  6. Irena says:

    Your blog has helped me (and still is as I keep re-reading some posts) to recover from my ED. It has been a long run for me too (on and off 15 years) and now at 33 years I finally am starting to get a grip of things – muscle building and weightlifting included. I only stumbled across your blog about 4 months ago when I was already making big changes (and yes a year of Cognitive Behavioural Therapy played a huge role an’all!). I am now recovering from a shoulder injury so cannot do any weightlifting, over the festive period gained a little weight and yet again – the ED thoughts come running back. Re-reading your posts is keeping me sane!
    Whatever you decide – always look after No.1! The rest comes naturally. ๐Ÿ™‚ Keep safe and take care!

    • Irena, I am really touched by your honesty and thank you for letting me know that my posts were/are helpful for you. It is the reason why I blog, because of feedbacks like this. If I can encourage only one person to find a healthy place after the ED, then all this work is worth it. I wish you from the bottom of my heart that you can stay stable against the ED thoughts and kick them in their nasty ass. You are strong and you came so far, never stop having faith and belief in yourself.

  7. Sleep trumps everything because we are nowhere near the best we can be on improper sleep.
    Get your zzzz’s on and send me IG pics to keep me updated when you need to take time of off posting. Take care of you.

  8. danielle says:

    yes, Swiss hotel breakfast is really the best. i have to totally agree with you on this from personal experience. the dairy in Swizterland is SOOOOO much better than the dairy in the states, it’s really amazing. and the Swiss butter… oh don’t get me started LOL – i love the little pretzel bread with the butter, i can just eat that and be happy. cold butter + pretzel bread = mmm.
    you sound very clear about your intentions, which is the good part. i love how you are writing your thoughts out, i’m sure it helps to consider them and organize them as well.
    your journey continues and i’m just grateful to share your journey!!! love you and always thinking great things for you ๐Ÿ™‚ xoxo

    • Ahahaha, you mean Silserli!! That’s the pretzel bread with butter ๐Ÿ™‚
      Thank you so much for your precious feedback. I will figure it out so it suits me and all of you!!

  9. That quote at the end of your post is perfect and sums everything up – don’t let fear become your regret.
    Whatever you decide I will be happy because I know you will have done the right thing for you and that’s what I (and I’m pretty sure 99.9% of your readers) want you to do.
    Oh and sleep is a miracle worker keep it as a priority – every part of you will thank you for it! ๐Ÿ™‚

    • Thank you so much!!
      I defnitely need to work a little more on the right solution, so far I keep up as usual, but some changes are needed. I will find a way that suits all of us, promised ๐Ÿ™‚

  10. Oh girl, I can -definitely- relate. It’s actually one of the reasons I stated taking more days off from blogging — it was just getting to be too much with work and studying, and my health/sanity was starting to suffer as a result. I was also starting to really dislike and resent blogging, which isn’t the kind of mentality I want to approach it with. If you’re feeling overwhelmed, just start taking more days off. Blog every second day, or twice a week. If you want to blog more, blog more, but don’t put that pressure on yourself that you HAVE to get a post up because, at the end of the day, blogging should be something you enjoy.

    • Thank you so much girl, it really means so much to me to hear that I am not the only one struggling! I know I will figure it out, but I really need to sleep now ๐Ÿ™‚
      And yes, as soon as blogging gets a dislike, something is wrong.

  11. Life happens, life is real and if you can blog 5 days a week that is OK and if you can only blog 1 day a week that is OK too. We are not here to ask for more that you can give. Feel free to rest, we understand that is why we come back everytime and read your blog. Be you, that’s it! ๐Ÿ˜‰

  12. Trust me this is a constant struggle for me as well, follow your heart and do what you feel is right! Sometimes its good to take a break and see if you miss it or not whatever you do we all will support you! xo C

  13. ohhhh yes. This is something I’m currently struggling with .It only really hit home when my blog was down and I was actually relieved. WTF!

  14. […] you all so much for your feedbacks and comments on Monday’s post. It is so good to hear how many of you out there were able to take my posts as an encouragement to […]

  15. calista says:

    I love your posts! And I love you! You’re such a gem ๐Ÿ™‚ I know you’ll figure out the balance. Sometimes that is such a difficult thing to achieve, but I know you can do it!

  16. Suzanne says:

    Pretty silent reader here, but I would hate to see you go completely. You are so YOU, and you never apologize for it. I love that; it’s something I’ve been working on but I’m not quite there yet.

    Perhaps try a more moderate approach, where you post just once a week, or twice/once a month (basically, whatever fits your schedule)?

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