9. October 2014 by swissfitchick
First of all – I am SO sorry for being such a horrible blogger currently. As you may have noticed I am WAY behind with replying to your comments – but I read every single one!!! – and I can NOT keep up with reading blogs – my Bloglovin’ is bursting from unread posts. Bear with me. Life is crazy here and I try to keep my head on instead of cut it off and running around like a chicken. Though that wouldn’t be the most boring image. I hope and promise it will get better soon!!
And when everything fails, I watch Carlton’s dance. ALWAYS wins. Always. Better than a chicken with the head cut off.
Ok, so now on to today’s subject.
Mom still buys size small when she buys shirts for me. (Yup, my Mom loves to buy stuff for me. I don’t mind.) As much as I try to convince her that I am NOT a size small anymore, she doesn’t get it. Sometimes I don’t know what she looks at, when she sees me. Cause obviously, I am not a size small anymore.
Momma is very skinny and she wants to be like that. She would freak out if she would put on muscle like me. I think she might even have a little problem of seeing her girl having guns and a bootey. Too bad, Mum. I keep them.
I know that there are still so many girls out there who are afraid of getting bulky when training with weights. It’s too bad, cause there are so MANY reasons why lifting weights is good for us.
I can only talk for myself how I benefit daily from my training with weights, but I am pretty sure I am not the only one out here, since I see more and more girls who lift and it makes me damn happy.
Being stronger physically makes you stronger mentally. For me, that’s a fact. When everything goes wrong, I boost my confidence at the box and I walk out with my head straight up, convinced that I can make it – whatever the bump on my road may be. If I can push myself to lift heavy things and torture myself through crazy mad workouts, then I know I have the mental strength to conquer other things too. Makes sense, yes?
Lifting is good for my bones and it improves my posture. It makes me breath heavily which means my lungs are getting trained too and I keep my cardiovascular system running. Yes, you can do Cardio while lifting weights. Lift faster. Ha. Or do a CrossFit WOD at the end to go all out.
I love that I can hit PR after PR and finding new capabilities of my body with every session I make. If it is a CrossFit Class or Powerlifting, it LIFTS me up (don’t you love my FUNNY wordplay) and boosts my happy hormones every single time.
Ok, maybe not every single time. I have ass-days when everything fails and I feel like a stupid beginner. I experience this a lot with Olympic Lifting. It is the toughest class for me, cause the technique is complex and with my limited mobility, it is a challenge for me. I can not really lift a lot of weight due to my sucking technique and, well, that sucking performance sucks as well. There is a LOT of work for me to do, but – I stick with it. It will come. On days like this, I just check it off and go to bed. No need to keep on whining or banging my head against my fridge (where I probably grabbed out some wine before). It wouldn’t help, especially not with my color of hair.
Anyway, I don’t know what people think of my appearance and I am almost 100% sure that there are a lot of remarks like:’Gosh, she looks big now. She really put on a lot of mass.’ Cause I AM bigger. And I own it. I don’t want to go back to my size small anymore. No, I DON’T give back my muscle mass anymore – it is hard earned work!
Some of my clothes may not fit anymore, but many of them still fit and especially look a lot better. That’s the nice side effect when you work your ass off and sweat 5 times a week. My body is tighter than it was with 6 kilos less. That’s the big discussion about the scale – fuck it. Look at you and check on how you feel, that’s all that matters. Scrap numbers on a stupid scale, they don’t say anything about you, your strength and your person. They don’t matter as long as you don’t compete or need to watch your weight medically.
Yes, I have days when I feel fat, who doesn’t? Most of the time it has something to do with stupid hormones which are messed up or a night out with booze and shittons of sodium in my food and 2 days later I feel good again. And yes, I also still work on more definition, but there is no way I stress over that. I am superhappy to be consistent with my training and nutrition and all the rest will come.
Maybe CrossFit and lifting weights isn’t for everyone and that’s perfectly ok – who am I to judge. But just understand that if someone feels the urge to judge – I don’t give a shit either if anyone thinks I am too big, or too muscly or too obsessed. As long as it works for me, who cares, right?
And girls, just so you know. I am not e personal trainer or a professional, but I can assure you that if you want a booty (and believe me, it feels GOOD to have that backside) or nice curves, you have to start lifting. Heavy. And no, you won’t turn into a massive bodybuilder man. Cause you are a girl, so you can’t possibly look like a man, unless you take strange drugs. Don’t do that. Lift, feel strong, confident and freaking ACE.
Thoughts on body change?
Thoughts on lifting weights?