19. June 2014 by swissfitchick
It’s a VLOG day!
Today I am trying to explain why binges happen. Or let’s say, why MY binges happened. I got asked so many times by friends why bingeing was my addiction. I also get questions from readers how they can stop the vicious cycle. There is definitely no general solution how to break this habit or how to start recovery. Like with everything in life, there is no universal rule, it is different for everyone who is confronted with this difficulty. I solely try to give an impact of thought and hint that might help to understand more the background of this disordered behavior and maybe for some to understand better why they do what they do. And from which point they can start to work towards health.
As for the video. I tried to keep it short, which failed. It’s me and my mouth, we can not stop once we started babbling. And I did NOT prepare myself for this video properly. I am THINKING OUT LOUD – so I am sorry for any nonsense sentences and English mistakes. What I did not say is, that bingeing wasn’t always that ‘easy’. I remember bingeing in the galley of a B747 while my crew was serving dinner to our passengers on the way to New York, Boston or Chicago in my times as a Flight Attendant for Swissair. I also had enough binges over leftovers in my own kitchen when I pretended I wanted to make the dishes. Hidden in the corner behind the fridge while my guests were chatting over a glass of wine in the living room. Privily and secretly – while keeping up a fake smile. Or I binged in my and Sandro’s home and when he came back from work all his food was gone. And I felt SO embarrassed. So there were definitely situations which were a lot more awkward, unglamurous and disturbed than ‘just’ being home alone and eat.
Also, I am talking about ME. It’s MY opinion about MY experience. There might be a whole different story out there from someone else, but this is me.
But now I stop and let you watch my video and my mess in my soon-to-move-out-tiny-flat. And sorry about the swoosh noise. It sucks. But my video skills do so as well, so you just have to deal with it.
More posts about binges/bulimia:
The point of no return – a description of that moment when the waterfall breaks. The moment when I decided to binge.
It’s not over yet and it sucks – Relapses happened in the past year on and off. I had to dig deep to figure where they came from. An analysis of my inner struggles.
Signs of an Eating Disorder – When does it start?
CLEAN – Cold Turkey from the pills.
Eating Habits – Recovery starts to show, slowly. Still taking it with a pinch of salt.
Take the baby steps – but take them – Recovery is a very slow process and it needs a lot of patience and effort. But the hard work pays off eventually.
My tips to recover from a binge – If it happens, the first thing that matters is how you handle it. My experience, my tips.
What’s your wish Lucie? I wish I could look back…. – Recovery is here, for real. Thankfulness and Reflection are the top feelings.
If you are interested in other topics or subjects related to my Eating Disorder / Workouts / Food – let me know! I plan on doing a VLOG once in a while if I get requests.