3. April 2014 by swissfitchick
Ok….I know I wrote a post about the scale months back, but I feel the need to address this subject again. And it might turn out in a rant, and I am already sorry and appologize for my language or my rudeness, but I have to be honest here. Honestly, it’s not the easiest post for me, since I put my bodyweight and body pics out there – and I am not 100% self-confident to go easy on this.
Let me tell you one thing before I start – I COMPLETELY understand the story with the scale. Believe me, I was the one who was married to the scale. I was obsessed, attached, addicted to the scale, I stepped on it daily if not several times in a day and the number dictated my mood, my day, my life. So if you struggle, please know I DO understand, but I still want to try and encourage anyone out there to drop the scale for good. I know in several cases it is necessary to control the weight – I am talking about the unhealthy obsessive behavior with the scale.
So I am part of the Body Earned Program by James Wilson and there is a great Community where we can ask questions, support each other, give advice, etc. So many times I read desperate messages from girls who are down and frustrated because the weight went up or because they don’t lose any weight. They are sad, angry, insecure and depressed because of this number. I read and feel in these messages how strong the influence of this number on their self-esteem works and how they are dependent on the movement (or non-movement) of this number. And it makes me so sad.
Now I show you something here. I made a side to side picture of myself. The left side is in July 2013, when I started with serious lifting and eating more balanced – means more, but balanced and specified to my body and workout plan. If we go by numbers, then I weigh 57kg on the left (125,6lbs) and 63kg on the right (138,8lbs). I know that the angles and the light is different, but – I do look tighter and smaller on the right side, means with MORE weight on my body. And it is a total of SIX kilograms, which is not a little amount of weight for me. BUT, I put on mostly muscle – reason for the weight increase. And you know what? All my clothes fit – ok, they are tighter around my butt and legs (thank God, I FINALLY have a shaped backside and QUAAADS) but they are lose around my waist.
AND I feel abso-freaking-lutely amazing. I am not skinny anymore and that’s a good thing. I am still small enough for my taste but I am strong. And the most important thing: I don’t give a damn shit about the stupid number on the scale. The last time I stepped on it was about 2 months ago, and I weighed about 63.5 kilos. So here you have my number. And? What does it tell you? That I am big? Fat? Small? Smart? Lean? Funny? Boring? Weak? Strong? Ace? Amazing? Lame? Mean?
It says nothing. Nothing at all. It says that I put on a lot of muscle, and probably some fat here and there, but that’s it. Life happens anyway, whatever number that stupid thing shows. I have the same friends, and the same job. I love life and I laugh a ton everyday, cause THAT is who I am. I might not have a boyfriend anymore, but I guess that’s not because of my weight 🙂
What I want to say and ask from you, is to stop letting the number on the scale or from measurements dragging you down. Seriously, please – our weight fluctuates between 2-3 kilos per DAY – this is normal and it’s the result of the amount of food we eat, the water intake, the hormones, digestion….especially us women retain water when the cycle is near, or we are bloated cause of different reasons etc. – this all is visible on the scale. AND, if you lift weights, you put on muscle and muscle is weight. When I had surgery in November last year, I retained so much water, I could hardly put on any pants and I didn’t even want to know how much I weighed. It took WEEKS until my body fully recovered and shed all that water – and it literally felt like I put on a lot of weight from one day to the other. I was frustrated, yes, but I had to stay patient and let my body heal. And it did, cause our bodies are the smartest things ever.
So listen to me: If you want to track your progress, then take pictures. Check on your clothes. Check in with YOURSELF on how you FEEL about yourself and your body. Even if you have the urge to step on the scale, then at least try to connect with your inner guide BEFORE you do that – and if you feel good about yourself then keep this feeling – no matter what the stupid scale says. Screw the numbers. They don’t say anything about you, they don’t measure your true value!! They DON’T represent who you ARE, cause damn, you are so much MORE than a friggin’ NUMBER.
Again – I’ve been there. I know the fight and I went through all this shit. And I can tell you that life without measurements and the scale is pretty darn wonderful. It doesn’t mean I am not in control, I do track my progress and I do work hard on my body, but I couldn’t care LESS about a number on a scale or from a measurement tape, when I look in the mirror and put on my jeans and feel good. And YES, I am about to work on my leanness and want to lean out more, but I still feel happy about where I am today. And even if there is one of those ‘fat-days’, I try to value myself apart from that feeling. I put on sexy make up, comfy but nice clothes and I try to smile. I focus on things that are seriously more important than if I have a puffy look for one or two days. A bloated belly or water retention happens, but it also passes just as fast.
Life is too short to be attached to a number. Go outside, look around – isn’t there a ton of much more important things than your weight? Of course, us healthy living freaks care about shape or leanness or fitness and that’s ok – but not, if it turns into a misery. Go, feel EPIC about yourself – and be the best version of yourself and enjoy it!!!
No questions today but I would love to hear your thoughts!