20. March 2014 by swissfitchick
I had 2 moments this week which made me think.
The first one was a really sad one – the wife of my personal trainer died 2 weeks ago and I went to her abdication. She was a personal trainer herself, only 51. It brought me down very much and I can not even start to say how sorry I feel for her husband and her family. He quoted her when she said:’ In the end, all what counts is Love. Everything else does not matter’. It still breaks my heart and brings tears to my eyes while I write this. Source
And then I went to a lunch date with a good friend early this week, and she used the expression ‘the gate of acceptance’. We both have body image issues and we slowly come to the point, where we are capable to accept our bodies the way they are. We agreed that it is more like a tunnel, cause it does not happen overnight that you accept your body the way it is – it is a journey. Source
Now what I realized after both these happenings is, that I want to remind myself and everyone out there about the importance of being grateful for a healthy body and for each day we are allowed to spend in this world. Most of my readers and including me have a healthy body, we can walk, smell, taste, see, listen, hug, kiss, smile, talk…..we can cook delicious food, we can cycle to work and we can workout. I am the FIRST to know how difficult it is to be happy with my body and loving it the way it is. I am the first to know how easy it is to obsess over weight and appearance. I know exactly how a bad body image can turn into a black whole that sucks you in, gives you anxieties, panic attacks, depression and battles. Even when my father was seriously sick and then passed away I couldn’t get out of this cycle. So you see – I definitely know how strong and dominant an Eating Disorder can be.
But sometimes we have to open our eyes, wake up and put things into perspective. Let me give you mine:
I do Crossfit and weight lifting at the gym, I do Yoga and I run sometimes. I meditate daily. I eat clean and healthy foods 80-90% of the time – I prep my meals and I have a structure of my meals during the day. I do this cause it a) makes me feel good, b) is my passion c) is my education in my passion d) makes me look good. D. Yes. I also do this, cause I want to look good. I want to be able to see my muscles I work for and I want to fit into my clothes. I want to have a nice booty and a flat tummy and toned arms. I realize that I am 35 and it’s not very realistic that I will look like this forever, but I want to work for it. But my priority is about how I feel – this all makes me feel GOOD, strong, vital, light and energized – and therefore every bit of this effort is absolutely worth it. The other side. I want to sleep in on weekends. I want to spend time with my friends and loved ones and not caring about a workout. I want to drink prosecco in ridiculous amounts sometimes and I want to eat a sweet treat daily. Sometimes I even want to eat Cheese Fondue followed by chocolate mousse. I want to have long and silly chats, deep and provoking talks, countless daily laughing fits and tons of breathtaking views in nature. I want to embrace life – every day, every minute. This is where I am today and I am happy with it. I don’t cut out foods I am not allergic to and I don’t miss out on social events cause I freak out over food. BUT I want to make a big effort in my healthy and fit lifestyle 90% of my time, cause this is what I enjoy doing just as much. My most important point is, that we all have a choice. How we want to live – it’s our decision. If I would want to be a Bikini Competitor, weighing my food and being aware of my macros would be a must – and that’s ok, cause I would have made this decision! If I have a layer of fat over my belly but am happy because I can eat cheese and crackers everyday, then that is ok too. If someone lives carefree and never exercises in life, then that’s another decision that is ok for that someone. As long as it is MY decision that makes ME happy. I am in charge, you are in charge. Source
Though in the end, it is all about Love. Love for yourself, for your body, for nature and for the people around you. There is so much beauty around us, love, inspiration, hope, opportunities, chances, fun. YOU are the one who decides if you miss out on life or if you want to take part and enjoy it to the fullest – in a very YOU way, whatever way that may be. As long as it makes you happy go for it, own it – and don’t let anything or anyone stand in your way. Accept yourself the way you are, cause you are amazing.Source
So whatever you do – do it with love and passion and enjoy every moment of it. Live today and be present. We never know what happens tomorrow.