14. March 2014 by swissfitchick
Sorry Lovies. I can not promise that this post will make any sense, cause I am having officially the craziest week on earth!! I don’t even know who I am nor what I’m doing here – so bear with me. I slept about 9 hours in the past 3 days, I wonder how I can remember my name. Elizabeth, right?
Let’s go from the start. You might remember that I ran the survivalrun last Sunday – the day before the carneval started. ‘Fasnacht’, aka carneval in Basel lasts 3 days and nights – from Monday 4am until Thursday 4am. So I went to my friend Sylvia on Sunday night, who I spend the carneval with since years and I slept over at her place. We went to bed at 11pm and got up at 2am to get ready for the start. Hmmm. Survivalrun and then 3 hours of sleep. But hey, that was only the beginning. The morning activities downtown lasted till 8:30am and then I went back home to catch up on some sleep. Back to town Monday, 2:30pm. We had AMAZING weather and we caught a nice spot in the sun and ordered some prosecco…..which was the beginning of many more to come! 🙂 We stayed up, walking, playing (Piccolo) and hanging around in the crowd until 3am. I slept in on Tuesday and we went back to town at 1pm. The craziness continued just the way it ended the night before – with lots of laughter, champagne, playing, walking, people watching etc. as a Flight Attendant crew. Seriously friends, these 3 days were the BEST ab workout I ever did – I laughed CONSTANTLY cause we were having so much fun. It was H-I-L-A-R-I-O-U-S. Until 2am. And oh well, I had to go to work on Wednesday morning. I even registered for Crossfit at 7 am. So after 4 hours of sleep I met Vanessa on the bike and we cycled to the box – this was a GOOD idea, cause my mind was so blurred, I needed some kick ass activity to wake me up!
I worked a few hours until late afternoon, went back home, took a nap (45min), showered and by 6pm I was back in town. And I stayed until the very end and cycled home on Thursday, 4:30 in the morning. Only to wake up 3 hours later to go to work…..I actually felt pretty ok, my brain was a little effed up and I looked a few years older than I actually am, but I did my best 🙂 Though my boss sent me home in the afternoon, cause he thought I was a walking Prosecco bottle.
A very quiet and relaxing weekend is needed, but…..I will be on my way to the mountains with the office crew this afternoon. And when I say officecrew, then you bet this is going to be crazy again – talk about a big bunch of crazy hilarious and adorable people together in a house in the Swiss Mountains. Friday till Sunday. I’m dead.
I tell you something – this week is so crazy but it definitely is one of the best I ever had. It’s long long ago, since I spent ALL 3 days at the carneval and actually participating AND having NOTHING else but FUN. I didn’t waste one single thought on stupid calories or guilt. And believe me, I had only ONE clean meal per day – my breakfast – the rest was prosecco and pasta. And some dessert here and there. Or a Hot Dog. I ate what was available, cause I needed it – I walked km after km for 3 days and I felt like my body burned a triple amount of calories. BUT I did not binge or letting go my connection to my body – it was all balanced out. I ate when I was hungry and sometimes I didn’t eat for hours, cause I didn’t feel like it. Besides that, I was too busy having fun – I couldn’t be bothered to think about eating greens or enough protein.
Don’t get me wrong – I don’t want to sound snobby or condescending – weeks or events like this are a HUGE challenge for someone with an ED and I fought many many years with my anxieties, panic attacks during these days and most of the time I had to skip days of Fasnacht, because I just couldn’t handle it. But I always kept on going and trying, cause this carneval is a tradition I know since I’ve been a kid and I love it so much. Giving up on it would have meant to capitulate on my Eating Disorder and I NEVER EVER wanted to give the disease the power to take away something from me that is so near to my heart.
Of course I am back in a more clean eating and workout structure again and that’s good, cause that’s what I enjoy just as much – living the healthy and fit lifestyle. But having a week off was just blissful – and believe me this – it didn’t hurt my progress at all. I still look exactly the same like the week before. So finally I was able to slap that ED-B***tch in the face and enjoy each and every second of a wonderful and dreamlike Fasnacht.
I should drink a glass of champagne on that. Who’s joining in??
Lucie aka Elizabeth