27. June 2013 by swissfitchick
I got a few questions, on how I manage to stay in shape and fearless through vacation, so I thought I am picking up this subject today.
Now I was really excited to go on that 15 day vacation. I could hardly wait. But that weren’t the only feelings I had about it. There were also fears. Anxieties. I knew, I will be in an unknown country, with a different schedule, with different food and different workout possibilities. Okay, I knew, that I can probably find more healthy food in NY than here, and I also knew I will be able to workout, but still – it’s the fear of stepping out of the comfort zone.
I am lucky to have Sandro, who is fully supporting me in all of my issues. I talked to him a lot about these emotions before we left and on some days before leaving, I even had small panic attacks, that I would turn into a wale after eating out for 15 days. He assured me, that we wouldn’t eat burger, fries and ice cream every day and that he would support me in any way possible, that I feel happy and comfortable on our vacation.
I can tell you, that I am SO glad that Sandro knows everything about my inner struggles. It took me a LOT to open up to him and to be honest all the time, cause sometimes I just feel SO ashamed in front of anybody, even my closest people. I was never judged by Sandro and even though he can not feel what I feel, he still is supportive, understanding, patient and always here. For me, for myself it is not such a big deal to live with my fears, because I know them inside and out, I know myself and when I am miserable and down on a day, I can stand that. I can run away from emotions or hide them, cause nobody will notice. When I am alone, I can decide what to eat, when to eat, how long to workout and I can keep up with disordered habits as long as I want to. It may sound weird, but it’s easier to be in the ‘comfort zone’ (which isn’t necessarily healthy – at least not mine all the time) when you’re alone. But of course you don’t want your partner or friend to suffer from your bad mood or some irrational panic attacks. The partner releases and shows the struggles and anxieties inside of us even more – they unconsciously act like a mirror. And it is hard to face your own fears so clearly. It’s just not as easy to block out emotions, cause the partner will sooner or later discover them. So in the beginning of our relationship, it wasn’t always easy when it came to my ED subjects – and on some days still isn’t. But that’s a subject for an other post. Which will also include the story of a relationship that broke because of my ED.
So, while on vacation, I really just made sure, I have a balance and SOMEHOW a routine. I insisted to book hotels with workout equipment, so I had the chance to workout. It might be a little obsessed, but for now, working out in the mornings keeps me sane and makes me much more balanced throughout the day. So all in all, I had a similar workout routine like at home. I did a workout first thing in the morning at the hotel gym, or I went to the Brooklyn Bridge Bootcamp. Clearly, I took 1-2 restdays per week and enjoyed sleeping in. After all I was on vacation.
Regarding food, I made sure, to start my day clean. I had my BombShell first thing…..
…and my lemon water on the side.
After my workout (or OUR, when Sandro joined me), we mostly went out to get something at the store. We would have had to pay extra for the hotel breakfast and I know that I don’t eat breakfast worth 20$. So of course, I had my daily fresh organic juice…
….plus hardboiled eggs or a yogurtmess on the side.
I didn’t think about food too much later in the day, since we were walking around like crazy for hours and I got so many impressions I had to handle. Yet, I made sure I had some healthy snacks on hand, like Baby Carrots, Coconut Water, a Protein Bar, more hardboiled eggs or nuts.
Sometimes we grabbed what was available…..
…and that was extremely ok. I tried not to get obsessed with an eating routine and just go with the flow. It worked extremely well and made my body coming to a relax mode where I felt really good and even lost a little weight.
We didn’t go out for dinner so much. First, it would have been too expensive, and second, there was where my fears came up the most. Eating out is normally not such a big problem for me anymore, but when I have to go to restaurants every day, I get in trouble. Besides that, my tummy isn’t happy either, because it’s not used to handle all the different kinds of spices, oils and ways of food preparation.
Of course, we DID enjoy some great food out….
….but then several times, we took the advantage to attack Whole Foods Salad Bar….
…or while at Cape Cod, we cooked up some home made deliciousness.
Looking back at these days, I think I did a pretty good job. I kept it clean and lean 70-80% of the time, and kept up with my lean out progress thanks to my workouts. But I did leave the comfort zone on several occasions, let go and enjoyed. And it felt good. Just good.
How do you challenge yourself to step out of your comfort zone – and how does it feel?
Do you eat out a lot?
- WIAW#24 – What I ate in New York City!! (swissfitchick.wordpress.com)
- And the trip goes on….. (swissfitchick.wordpress.com)
- Friday Favorites – Bloglove and another Trip (swissfitchick.wordpress.com)
- WIAW#25 – What I ate in Cape Cod and all the American Goodies!! (swissfitchick.wordpress.com)
- I Don’t Eat As Much Junk As You Think I Do. (betterwithsprinklesblog.com)
- Travel Eating (freshyeats.com)