Never let it dominate your life.

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16. May 2013 by swissfitchick

Such a simple quote, yet not the easiest to do. I remember the beginning and the depth of my anorexia, I literally lived for the reason to getting skinnier. It was the only thing that mattered.

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There was one thing, my parents always taught me and my brother: Life is short – live it. Smile, don’t stop believing, treat others with respect and always cultivate your friendships. Even in my worst phases, I never forgot about that. And I always practiced it, even though being caught in several phases of different eating disorders.

I might have almost lost a few friends because of some trouble boyfriends I had in my life, but never because of my eating disorder. I am happy to say that living, family and my friends were always more important than my weight in the end.

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I know it was not always easy for them and still isn’t. But I always made my best to be a good friend, a good daughter and a good sister. The last I wanted, was that my Eating Disorder pulls my environment down too. It had my thoughts, my emotions, my body and my soul – never ever would it get my loved ones.

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When I turned 35 last week, I reflected a bit on my past. I read so many stories of women (I never read a story of a man so far) who suffered from Eating Disorders for years and really lost everything. Job, friends, home, family. This breaks my heart. I know how cruel the disease is, and I know that it can take everything from you. I am glad and proud to say, that despite all my downs, all my fights and through all these years, I always believed in life. I never gave up and I never stopped smiling. I didn’t give up my relationships – all my friendships last since years. I had a job and I lived my dreams – I lived and worked in the Philippines and I lived and worked in Berlin. I partied, danced, cried, laughed, talked, worked, wrote, ran, took risks and adventures – and I never regret it.

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It was the reason, why many people were extremely surprised when I outed about my Eating Disorder. WHAT, YOU?! Yes, me. The smiling happy Lucie. Obviously a few of these smiles were fake – but heck, they kept me strong and surviving while battling.

I don’t want to sound like a preacher, but – I can only recommend to have fun in life and live it – no matter what. My Dad left us at an age of 55. He was full of vital force, dreams and joy, but it was not meant to be longer than that. We never know what life has in store for us, so try not to let an Eating Disorder dominate it. There is so much beauty and fun we can experience in life, and there is so much we can miss if we don’t look at it. It’s not worth it. Even if we still struggle – and I definitely STILL struggle a LOT – we need to slap this ED in the face, turn away and take a step forward. BECAUSE it is worth it.

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What makes you smile?

Tell me one thing that makes your day beautiful!! 

xxx

Lucie

20 thoughts on “Never let it dominate your life.

  1. Esthi says:

    You nailed it. Great post! Love you sweetie!

  2. aimeelouise says:

    I love this post so much! I pretty much lost everything to anorexia. My friends, childhood, any hobbies, passion for life, and my happiness, but I am trying so hard everyday to turn that around. I’m only 18 so I still have a lot of time to go out and be young, but it’s kind of hard when you’re afraid to go out of your comfort zone. Sometimes I feel angry because I just want to be ‘normal’, but I truly think that we can get over this and enjoy our lives. x

    • And I KNOW you can do it!! As you say, you are still so young and you have ALL the chances to turn it all around. Believe me, I know how hard it is, but staying stuck in the past and regretting what was doesn’t help – live the moment, step forward and never lose hope!!

  3. What a beautiful + inspiring post! You are such a beautiful soul + I am so happy that you are so open about all the things you go through on a daily basis, this helps so many women Lucie you have NO IDEA! Spending time reflecting is great, especially around your birthday, I always LOVE reflecting and getting myself new goals + ways to better myself! You live such a beautiful life, + the Philippines, SO COOL! Sending you much love on this next year + new chapter in your life! Love + Shine CourtStar

    • Thank you so much Courtney!! I definitely hope that a few souls out there take this as a chance to see life and all its beauty, and that an ED is mean and unworthy. I know it is not always easy, but we must try every day!

  4. This is a beautifully touching post, Lucie—one that undoubtedly came straight from the heart!❤ By sharing your story, you're inspiring so many women out there to fight for their lives, rather than succumbing to the imprisonment of an eating disorder. I completely agree with you—even in recovery, we can still *choose* to enjoy the things in life that bring us happiness and joy—friends, family, travel, coffee dates, etc. Life is far too short to let an ED—and the thoughts that accompany it—prevent us from seizing the day. Even during the hardest times, there is always joy to be found.❤

    Love you SO much, girl!! Sending huge hugs!❤ xoxo

    • I couldn’t agree more with you Sara!! Recovery os a long process and it definitely doesn’t mean, that we are caught in depression during it. We NEED to face life and all its beauty, it’s the only way to get over this ED Ego!!

  5. cleanfoodcreativefitness says:

    Such a beautfiul post Lucie! There is nothing better than friends and family in my opinion and I’m so happy you were able to hold on to that! While I did lose some friends due to my ED, my family stuck by me through thick and thin and for that I could not be any more grateful!

  6. This was a very inspirational post for me! You should be so proud🙂.

  7. Well this post definitely made me smile…🙂

    One of the things that I’ve always loved about you, Lucie, is that despite all of your struggles and slip ups, you’re always out there living and loving life. My ED definitely stole a lot from me, and I’m not proud to say that I let it come before friends and family on countless occasions. It’s only now I realize how stupid and wrong I was, but undoing the damage is proving to be a little more difficult than I’d like it to be. But we can only move forward if we stop looking back, so here’s to living each day to the fullest😀
    ❤❤

    • Thank you so much Hunn. I am so glad that it didn’t drag everything away from me.
      As you say, it’s never too late. Life is here, now, and we have the chance to live it to the fullest, each and every day.

  8. glitterandgirlpower says:

    I’ve just stumbled across your blog and this post was so true and moving. You are very inspirational

  9. Great post darling! xo

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