7. January 2013 by swissfitchick
Good morning, welcome to Monday, to MARVELOUS in my Monday, hosted by Katie, a big thank you!!
In case you missed it: My Recipe page and my Workout page are finally up! They still
need some more work, but ready to use now!
I hope you had a good start into the new week, I am back at work today and oh believe me, I had the blues. For those who have ED/Depression-issues: this post includes anxiety thoughts and complaints. If anyone is not ready for some negative lines, scroll down to the last part of the post.
But first to the marvelousities:
Marvelous was my Friday night. Sandro was out, and I pampered myself with a perfect night alone at home. An appetizer at the kitchen table while cooking….
a delish dinner….
….and hanging around the rest of the evening on the couch by wathcing a movie, reading, and knitting. It’s the little things that make me happy. Marvelous!
I started Saturday morning with a workout from Badass-Shannon and I thought I am going to die. But I didn’t. And it felt good – afterwards, even though I looked pretty
fucked up drained when finished. I had a good fuel which I was looking forward to, ready:
I don’t know what it was, but I started to feel depressed during Saturday. Some ED thoughts sneaked in too, of course. And of course I didn’t eat well. And felt even worse. I was very close to a relapse and felt guilty.
I think I was just getting used to it to be around Sandro a lot, and to have tons of time to do stuff without pressure – when suddenly work is calling. I know this is complaining on a high level, but my anxieties came back too and I was not prepared. Somehow I was kind of scared to leave that safe castle I was in for the last 17 days. Unfortunately, Sandro and me weren’t very close that day either. We had several different opinions all day. This is nothing new, we both are
stubborn opinionated and outspoken, so we discuss a lot. But it’s a difference to a fight or a real dispute. We don’t fight a lot, we prefer to laugh and talk…..but well, we had a fight and we only hugged it out before we went to bed, cause we both can not go to bed in a fight, I think that is awful. Well, that happens. I am not pretending that we are a shinging happy couple all around the clock. We are humans and we speak our minds, and sometimes it adds up. Our relationship is full of love, humour (tons of that :-)) and support, but we do have our moments and I think it is totally fine. I rather have a few more discussions with Sandro than to brush things under the carpet and pretending nothing happened. I could NEVER do that. I am very straight, sometimes a bit too straight probably, and especially in the wrong moments….:-) If there is something on my mind, I want to tell Sandro IMMEDIATELY. You can imagine, that it’s not always a good moment to nag 🙂 Sandro asked me several times if I am sure that I am not from somewhere South originally, as I have a pretty hot temper sometimes…..
Enough moaning!! Sunday was nice and I felt better. I did a long meditation and told myself that the anxieties make everything look more scary than it actually is and create mountains out of nothing and that I will be totally fine by going back to Basel and back to worklife. That helped a lot. Sometimes I just need to reach out for some distance between me and those creepy thoughts. This quote from Heather I saw yesterday on her blog (which is a fantastic one, check it out!!) was exactly the right thing to read:
‘Truth speaks softly because it is certain. Fear speaks loudly because it needs to be loud in order to seem real.’
I did the 2nd workout from Shannon which almost killed me again and we had late breakfast. Fresh and clean:
It was a foggy Sunday, which I used to bake something:
….did some meal prep…..
took random pics I wasn’t even aware of….
and we went for a walk as usual 🙂 Including a stop at Starbucks.
That’s for MIMM today! Have a wonderful day, friends!!